Hi everyone, my name is Sandy, and I'm very glad to have found this group.
I'm 44, I live in outer suburban Melbourne (Australia) and am just beginning to transition, which is both exciting and scary at the same time.
I've always felt that it was a either a mistake or a cosmic joke that I was born female, and I've spent most of the last 30 years trying to deny my feelings. Now I'm finally in a place where I've got my headspace together and can begin to make the transition without totally f*cking up anyone else's life - my kids are all grown up, I have no partner. And I'm about to go home after a 4 month holiday during which I did my best to sort out exactly how I felt about myself, and so here I am. I've been gradually moving from a feminine "shape" to a more masculine one, and dressing in a very gender-neutral/ambiguous fashion for much of the last 6-12 months. I've only told a very few people of my decision up till now, but so far everyone has been very supportive, which makes me feel a bit more confident.
My first really big hurdle is going to be telling my mother. My next big hurdle will be talking to my doctor.
I'm not sure what other information people might want to know, please feel free to ask me.
Oh, and I know my nick/username is still feminine. I've woven my internet persona (a dragon) so much into my real life over the last 16 or so years, it's going to take quite a bit of untangling, and I haven't decided yet what to do about it. Azhreia is the name of my domain, my email address, just about every place on the net that has a login, I use azhreia. If anyone has any good suggestions on how to proceed, I'd like to hear them. In many ways my nick is more my name than my (girl)name is. I've shortened it to Azh where possible, but as you guys know, it's not always easy.